Out of time

I was thinking --or was it feeling-- I am not yet of the adult world yet I am at the same time. Just as I am no-longer a child, yet some of their rules still apply. In the eyes of others I may never grow out of the roles that I am held into with a fervor. Does it make you feel safe to let me know my place? If that is so, I can concede to your will and peace of mind, except for where it constrains and binds me past my boundaries. So, sometimes I am lumped into consideration with those younger than me while higher expectations of responsibility are placed upon me. These things I understand, eventually the weight of the responses from an individual is removed from the parents to be shouldered by the grown child. (This does not mean there is no room to rely on others.) Yet some things of childhood one never looses, the unknowing uncertainties as to what is right and what is wrong, as you continue disentangling a perceived gray zone into its separate white and black particulates. In some ways we always remain children, small and unknowing. The more the specifics become clear a conclusion is come to that the world is much more larger that that, as if you were focused on clearing a small patch of leaves on the ground only to look up once you are done and realize there is a whole dense forest surrounding you.

Anyway, despite some of the potentially dis-likable portions of childhood remain, some loose the charms of childhood. That beguiling innocence, passion for life, a singular focus on the here and now. The introduction of abstraction --beautiful as it is-- is a double edged sword as it can lead to distraction....

I suppose I may as well come to this. Rules, or something like that.
Here is one: Everything in moderation.
It may be overused by some, but I do think it holds truth to it. Too much of anything but God can lead to destruction. Destruction of what you may ask, well that depends on the thing. In simpler cases too much eating with destroy your health and quite possibly your self image. Too much watching of television and other sources of mindless entertainment eats away the hours and your mind... and so forth.