I'm beginning to realise that I've come to a stage in my life where I'm slowly beginning to understand people a little bit more. From this I have found that people are the same, no matter what age they are. They still feel the same pain and hurt causing them to lash out the same ways. As we get older we just get better at hiding the true source of our outbursts. Though I may not adequately be describing this realisation, it has helped me greatly to not get as hurt by people and the offsetting things they do.
Many of the times I perceive someone to be angry at me it is most likely that there is something else going on that I don't know about causing their emotions that also has put a filter over their input and output. Once I get to a place where I can take a step back away from my initial reaction to bite back in an offence to their perceived onslaught I can therefore become capable of seeing them as a person in need. Or at least realise that there is something else going on. Then the choice becomes to ask them about it in hopes of better understanding and possibly helping the person, or to just leave it, but no longer take it personally as you realise that the world doesn't revolve around you therefore you are never the sole source of someone else's irritation.
The ability to irritate someone must have some basis on their own internal functioning. If another person were somehow perfect there would be no way to irritate, or hurt them past physical pain. By irritate I mean the simplest meaning of the word as in annoyance and also another meaning for this: to cause emotional turmoil. What you are doing to the other person may not be right, but if they were a mentally and emotionally healthy person (and again, somehow perfect- without any dysfunction) your actions would be incapable of irritating them. They may cause the other person to take action to better the situation but they wouldn't hold it inside and let it dictate their actions toward irrelevant company in a detrimental manner.
What I'm trying to say is we can never take other peoples actions to heart when they have let something else so focus their attention that it affects their behaviour to everyone else in a bad way, because even though while they are being short and grumpy with you making you feel slighted, annoyed and quite possibly very hurt they have just let some last straw action overtake their demeanour. This final action may possibly have little correlation to the source. Quite possibly some fear or disappointment.
I'll leave this thought at that for now, because it is late and I am tired. Now for a...
Disclaimer: (how I hypocritically dislike disclaimers people put on their work)
This thought/writing may not be very accurate... but I am still trying to decipher the world around me and at the same time learn how to adequately verbalize/write my thoughts in a coherent manner. My hope is that no matter how many times I do less that desirable, (aka don't succeed) I will eventually get to a place where I have developed, tried enough to have a nice success rate. Something along that line...
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