So… These three months have been a pretty interesting experience. I enjoyed myself most of the time and I stretched a lot of my boundaries. But the stretching of my boundaries in some areas may have not been the best thing. In others I believe it is good. As with most times in life, I am different now but entirely still the same. I took risks, not necessarily the safest thing to do. Regardless I trusted God would keep me safe. Met up with people I hadn’t met before, had fun, took terribly long bus rides, went to school with Sue and so on. I really did enjoy getting to know my cousins again and meet ones I didn’t know I had. Though most of them were younger than me so there was only a certain extent we could connect on, being that my focuses in life have been irrevocably changed from that of a 12 year old. Seven years make a world of a difference when your younger than 20. It’s fascinating the stages of development and human interaction we humans go through.
Movies emotionally disturb me sometimes. I just don’t like to watch people in misery, it’s painful!
People definitely influence my decisions… If I weren’t around so many people saying that it is okay then I probably wouldn’t have caved so quickly on my convictions. I remember they were previously so strong. It makes me doubt myself, will I fall short of my current standards rules of living? But I remember I held doubt on my previous convictions before I changed them, my current ones I do not. Does that make sense? Probably not. I am intentionally vague. My goal is to make you unknowing of what I am exactly talking about with that hope that this abstraction connects somewhere to an aspect of your life. I seek to find knowledge and understanding above all. This takes time and experience. I have experienced more than before but never everything. Never everything, indeed.
